Does anyone read this still?
It has been so long since I have blogged, I wasn't even sure if I remembered how to log in!
I have feared this post because I wasn't sure how to update. How could I possibly sum up the last 7 months? I can't. It is simply impossible. The last 7 months were very difficult for me. So very challenging, too many things to say and not enough time or emotion to do any of it justice.
But among difficulties, the last 7 months have grown so much beauty. How is that possible? If you only knew... if you only spent a little time in my shoes.
There was Death. Illness. Multiple surgeries. There were wedding plans. A shy little boy who started school. A lot of forgiveness and love. Restored relationships with many people close to me. Painful discoveries, great heartache, but above all, a complete renewal of my faith.
Of all that has happened since the last time I blogged, I believe that my greatest blessing has been this journey with God. In times when I thought He had abandoned my family, when I felt like He wasn't a part of me, our Lord God pulled me so close to Him. I am forever changed because of His graces... because of His love.
And so here I am with not much to update except to say that the last 7 months have been the most challenging months of my life. Yes, this certainly tops any struggles I have encountered as a single mother, it has been more challenging than the discovery of an unexpected pregnancy... more difficult than my conflicts with my brother... so much more harder to handle than any emotional turmoil I have experienced with Mark in the past.
But today is so good because of my relationship with God. And because of this relationship with God, because of my renewed faith and complete trust in the Lord, I am happy to say that my life has never been better than it is right now. I have never been happier than I am right at this moment.
And you know what? Today marks one month away from my wedding date.
Time went by much quicker then I ever thought it could.
Instead of dwelling on so many painful things that happened in the past months, I want to blog about the beautiful future I have with Mark, Elijah and our Lord Jesus Christ. Among many hardships, my relationship with Mark has flourished into something so very beautiful, and I cannot wait to finally be his wife.
I regret not blogging all this time, I love having this blog because it will remind me many years from now of all the events in my life. The last 7 months are unrecorded but hopefully from now on I'll have something to refer to when my memory fails me :) I can't wait to move on from here... to share with you all my wedding happiness and family bliss...
Thank you for waiting... and for visiting my neglected blog once again.